i dont need to expose my personal life to the public anymore.
i need to take pride in my public life. this is sohrab my production manager. I need to use capitals properly if i'm taking pride, so Sohrab it is. I've a moment off teaching, which is going amazingly well. I had an emmotional fuck ups for a whole week painful but a huge gift to me in descovering how and why i self sabotage and talk myself down in public and privately. (Not that at moments i dont big myself up a little too much too.} I hope, nay, I have faith, I haven't done irreperable damage or hurt anyone unnecessarily. Or if i have that they forgive me. Sounds all a bit personal to me. maybe we are all people so one can't remove personal life from public life completely. Anyway thats the reason this is called public life because it's not on to expose people publiclly without their permission.Oh god for the middle way.
Oh yeah.
i'm now writing this a week after most of these pix, though the pic of me in paris at azzadines studio and the pic of judy at nokis were on the previous and fateful saturday and thursday, in there to remind me about my potential to undermine myself around the good stuff. i'm going to sit for 15 mins before desperate housewives. haven't sat just got blog competition fever. now i'm going to put sorahb back and watch desperate h/ws